Chineese fortune cookie says: "Mend the first break, kill the first snake, and conquer everything you undertake."  I mean how often do you get a fortune that is that inspiring?  The lucky numbers sucked though. 

The race season is bearing down on me like a speeding train.  Getting nervous but very excited.  From May through September there will be track racing twice a week and mountain bike racing every weekend.  Then Mid-October cyclocross starts!  Of the three, cyclocross will be my main focus, which means if i wanted to start "training" for it I could start now and not be far behind, but getting a look at Lyle's backside at the first bandit cross stage makes me nervous.  I think he spent some (many many hours) on the trainer this winter.  The track and mountain bike seasons will help me maintain my fitness, but moving to Cat3 this year in cyclocross means I need to be above my game.  My lack of training and horrible diet is my own fault.  I guess I am just anxious becasue I do not yet know if I am ready, plus it is alot of racing, many weekend out of my own bed.  My legs feel good, but race day is something different.  Can I really push it off road for 1 1/2 hours straight?  That is another thing, racing cross country in the WORS series this year I will be racing Comp.  I have been told it isn't much faster, just one lap longer.  We will see.  I want to start riding rollers, but feel without a hear rate monitor, it isnt worth it.  I push myself too hard on the trainer, tire myself out then stop.  If I paced myself, I would go longer, work just as hard, and the HRM would tell me that.  Now, Julie has one that I could use, but I am lazy, say no, make excuses. I am doing alot of thinking and wondering and rationalizing, but not actually doing.  Riding everyday with way too much in my bag or in my panniers helps.  Now I am babbling.

So, what is it then.  Eat better, and start training schedule. <-period

There is something about Milwaukee and DC that make me think about leaving Chicago.  There is a look, a feel that those cities have.  I can not really explain it, there just is a draw.  On the other hand, Chicago has everything I need and want, plus so much i don't even know about.  Chicago feels like a small town sometimes, but the other places are even smaller and I think the charm would wear off fast.  Plus if I leave it will be for somewhere warmer and much more hilly.  The DC folks are great though.  They make me feel very welcome even though they don't know me that well.  Chicago definatly doesn't have that going for it.  And there we go with more ramble. Finis